Reblog — I’m done
My first love is over. And I’m now completely out of that fucking fairy tale. Because it was what I expected to be there were tons of disappointment. But not any more. It was truly a good experience. I got to know how it feels when your heart rips apart. Hurts even when you breathe, drink or eat. I wonder if it does affect it physically, but that’s what I’ve got.
What I actually had expected was how dramas portray a kinda good and decent man. This kind of man never never exist. After knowing so much about man, I seriously think that they are… animal? Ya, we already are. You know what I mean.
I wonder how fat and ugly girls got their partner to really love them. Is there really such guy? But it is true that all men like pretty girls, so why would a guy go with a fat and ugly one? Oh and then ask her to go on diet…? Okay, I kind of agree with this. Fat girls should go on diet. But when she made an effort to and she already know that she’s fat, you either shut up or dump her. Every comment about this feels like a stab in the heart. I already lost 16kg and he said don’t tell him what I ate if I think it is inappropriate. Hahaha fuck you.
Someone told me that it’s ok if your boyfriend talks or flirts with other girls. It might be common but it’s not okay. It hurts. They know it’ll hurt their partner but still. Every guy is doing this. This is so a ridiculous fact that I don’t want to accept.
So I guess it’s nothing much looking at pretty girl’s picture and video? Another fact that can’t be change but it still hurts.
I am never his priority. This is probably just my case. Kinda sad. No, very sad thing. I don’t actually ask for much and I don’t even get a bit of that much. I comes after alot of things. Probably at lease before his friends? Uh, no. He just came online at 3am saying cos there are lesser people around and so that he can talk to me. But he actually didn’t talk much and talked to someone else more actively. This is the last fatal reason.
Seriously I don’t wanna get loved and appreciated because I have put in effort in this relationship. But funny, I hope I at least get that and I got nothing.
I’ll soar up high and be someone you had never imagine you could have.
Mr Song, if I ever want to go back together and beg you, please do me one last favour and say no.